Friday, December 28, 2007

Im trying

Im trying to be friends with someone who, not in my wildest dreams, can be friends with me. I don't know, I just have this burden that I need to be friends with that person.

I made the move also. Exerted effort. But... I guess, its not yet the right time.
Although I admit I'm not also totally healed from the past experience but I'm opening myself to a new and sincere friendship.

Last night, I was talking to God, asking Him why I often think of that person. Why I still have the burden. But I told Him, if its not the right time, its not and asked Him to help me forget and unburden. " It'll come.." I said to myself. As for that human being.. "Maybe when the bitterness is not there anymore, even the pain. You only know that your not hurting when you can't remember the pain anymore."

And as for me.. "I can't remember the pain anymore, BUT everthing's still in my memory. "
I guess what I want is a genuine relationship with that person. But if its not meant to be, it won't happen.

Monday, December 17, 2007

Masakit

" Ang dami namang masakit sayo kat.." Ito ang sinabi sakin ni Ice 1 buwan na ang nakalilipas nung nagreklamo akong sumasakit yung ngipin ko. Pagkalipas ng isang linggo, tinanggalan ako ng wisdom tooth ( nagiisip ako ng tagalog nitong salitang ito). Tinahi ang aking gums kaya 1 araw akong absent sa trabaho. At halos isang linggo akong hirap magsalita at kumain. Ang daming bawal, lalo na ang kumain ng malalansa at maiiinit. Kamusta naman yon diba? Napakahirap. Para akong tinaggalan ng karapatang mabuhay. Wehehe.. Exag! Sa unang linggo ko pagkatapos ng aking operasyon, lahat ng kinakain ko ay malamig at malalambot at maliliit. Ewan ko nga kung namayat ba ako eh. Pero sa aking palagay, hindi naman. Hehe. Dahil kahit hirap akong kumain (umabot na sa kaawaan ako ni ice at aming mga kaibigan pag nakikita nila akong kumain), hindi ko hinahayaang onte lang ang nakakain ko. Sobrang tagal nga lang pero ang importante'y mabusog ang aking mga alaga sa tiyan. :)
Pero sa totoo lang, masakit at madugo ang naging proseso ng aking pag galing. Pero ang maganda dun ay inalagaan ako ni Yelo at ng aking pamilya.

Di pa natatapos ang aking paghihirap ay nagkaroon naman ako ng bisita. Alam na ng mga kababaihan ang aking sinasabi, at sa mga kalalakihan, kayo na bahalang magisip kung anu yun. Ito ay para sa mga walang malisyang tao at malawak ang pagiisip lamang. :) Kaya panibaong sakit nanaman ang aking nararamdaman. Napakahirap, nanaman, at napakasakit. Minsa'y naiisip kong mahirap maging babae at masakit. Naalala ko yung linya ni Judai sa kanyang pelikulang pinamagatang 'Kasal, Kasali, Kasalo', nung nanganak siya, pag gising niya, sinabi niya kay Ryan (oo, kami'y malapit sa isa't isa).. 'dapat, kayong mga lalaki ang nanganganak...'. Nakakatuwang isipin na mas mahirap nga ang maging babae pero masarap din naman kasi tayo lang ang sinusuyo pag nililigawan, tayo nga lang ang dapat nililigawan eh, hindi mga lalaki. Tayo lang ang nakakapag suot ng mga magagandang damit ang mga baro't saya na hindi naman kamahalan dahil ikumpara sa mga lalaki, napakamahal ng kanilang mga gamit at damit. At marami pa akong pwedeng isulat.

PERO, di naman ako nagrereklamo. Sinasabi ko lang. Alam kong natural naman na maramdaman ang mga ito, naisip ko lang magsulat ng blog dahil sobrang inaantok na ko at sumasakit ang ulo ko sa pagpipigil ng antok, para lang magising ako.

Ayun, hanggang sa muli. Maraming Salamat at may effort itong entry na ito. :)

Friday, November 23, 2007

12 Reasons Why I Love Thee

12 Reasons Why I Love Thee

One
You chose me.
Two
You look at me with so much respect.
Three
You treat me like a PRINCESS.
Four
You consider me as your one and only Baby.
Five
You exert so much effort to spend time with me every weekend and wake up at 3am then don’t sleep the whole Sunday. You do that all because of me!
Six
You gave me a reason to plan my future knowing I will always have you by my side.
Seven
You tell me when I don’t look good and even when I don’t smell good.
Eight
You always tell me I’m beautiful.
Nine
You always tell me to spend my money to beautify myself.
Ten
You think of me first than yourself.
Eleven
You take really good care of me.
Twelve
You gave me nth chances and forgave me and still love me the same.. even more now.

To be continued....

Why 12? Because we spent 12 unforgettable months together as a couple. And I’m looking forward for more and more and more years with you.. lifetime with you.


HAPPY FIRST YEAR ANNIVERSARY MY HUNNY! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

First Year Anniversary

11-23-07 Today is our first year anniversary! OMG! Though it has only been a year i feel we've been together like forever. Maybe because we really started as friends 4 years ago. Wow! And from the moment we met, we had a passion we both shared -- we have the same faith and from then on, every single day we spent together was special for us. That's why I feel it has been forever though 'tis only a year.

Our foundation is friendship. He's actually the one who's always sharing before because I was the shy type. I vividly remember our first 'friendly' date at KFC metroeast (haha). I ordered chicken strips meal (OMG! that was soo long ago, i;m not even sure if there's still such meal in KFC) and i think he ordered 1 pc chicken meal. Anyway, he told me everything he can share regarding his family. He was very spontaneous and witty. I was actually entertained by how he makes kwento, kakaaliw! Hehe! So there. He offered to take me home but as a dalagang filipina, I declined. Hehe! Told him I can manage. He was gentleman enough to respect that and bid me goodbye. His famous words when parting.. "bless you kat"

I got the name PotPot from him. I don't exactly know how he came up with that name but eversince he made that up, he called me katpot or potpot in school. Even our close friends called me potpot or katpot. Hehe.

Enough of the memories..

I'm very thankful to have him in my life. I really could not ask for more. He's a rare catch and I am too! ;p I'm glad we found each other. We've been through a lot also, so many not so good things that happened but we made it. We both became better individuals and we matured separately... and now we're maturing and growing together as a couple.

God is preparing us for a new challenge. I still don't know when and what the challenge will be but we are both praying for God's guidance.

When you wait for God's time, you can't imagine how He will reward you! One cannot fathom His idea of the word BEST for you, for us. You just cannot stop saying thanks and think if you really deserve to have that. Well, I did and so does everyone. Just wait in the Lord and have Faith in Him.

Thursday, November 8, 2007

Im Vain






I know, I know. You'll notice in both my friendster and multiply account that I AM REALLY VAIN! I sooo love taking pictures of myself. I love posing for the cam. I think I'm a camwhore! haha! Self-confessed. Just so everybody knows why I always update my accounts. Hehe! And I have tons of pictures at our house pa! Hehe! :P

I feel happy when I see myself inside a small box, either in a cam or in a pc. Haha! I don't know. Maybe Im just maarte! But I love being maarte. Maarte in a sense that I am a girl and its normal to be like that. I'm not maarte as in like "you make tusok-tusok the fishball" arte factor. Hehe! I'm just simply maarte. And taking pictures is one of the things I enjoy doing. I know, I know. I'm conceited. ;p

Well, atleast I'm modest enough to confess that I am really conceited.. self-obsessed.. vain! I don't have vices naman so better be a camwhore than any other whore.. Joke! ;p

I love myself. If I don't, who would? So love yourself first so that you can love others. ;p And others will just, you know, fall madly in love with you! Wahahaha! Sorry, just making fun of myself.

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

A Sweet Truth




" When God knows you're ready for the responsibility of commitment, He'll reveal the right person under the right circumstances..."


... He already revealed to me the person. Just waiting for God's perfect time...

Everyone's Getting Married!

I have been asked many times already of the million dollar question "When ang kasal niyo?" :o

Uh-Oh! Well.. (thinking).. It'll come. Hehe. It will as soon as we have God's go signal. As of now, we are both praying for our relationship to be much stronger and for us to love each other more. We are not in a hurry but of course, like any other couple, we talk about it, very often. We are open in listening to advice of trusted friends and wise discernment but It'll be up to the man up there. We are in the proces of planning and prioritizing.

Honestly, talking about our future together is a breath of fresh air for me. I've always wanted to get married, I've always dreamt about wearing a white gown and walking down the aisle, dazzling with so much love. I imagined my man staring at me and just awestruck of how beautiful his soon to be wife is and thinking that he really made the right decision. Haha!

Its fun to think of it, its exciting to plan but again, we haven't received any word from our provider. :) Personally, I really want to and even Ice. We just have a complicated situation so its not easy for us to just decide and go for it also. Its a lifetime commitment and we want everything to be perfect, as God wants it to be. :)
WE just need to wait and be excited. As God started our love story, He will also plan the wedding of the year (whatever year that may be). :)

Tuesday, November 6, 2007

I have different names.. I have lotsa names..

I think im one of the few people who has lots of names -- nicknames.. hehe..

At home im called Katre. When i reached gradeschool first it was just Katrina but then came another Katrina in my class. So my friends thought of a name for both of us, out of confusion and out of love for us.. hehe.. it was really hard for us coz we both make lingon when they say Katrina. So there. We have friends who were very creative and thought of combining our first and last names.. Katrina de Guzman -- KADIGI and Katrina Salvador -- KS! So easy for KS.. haha! but for me, it was just the start. So our classmates called me KADIGI -- that i find very mahaba but still that was what they called me. Anyway, come grade 6 it became KADIG then finally during my grade 7 days, my name was improvised. It became KADI! HAhahahaha!!! the shorter the better! :)

So there. I graduated HS with the name KADI. Some of my batchmates from OB don't even know my real name is Katrina. I just found out this year coz I invited my batchmates in my friendster and multiply account and they always ask who i am. HAHA! my name in friendster is KAT and my name in multiply is KATRE! hahaha! See? I soo have lotsa names!! :P so confusing to them! haha! :)

During my college days in Miriam I made sure I'll make my name as mature as i can, coz im in college already. Haha!! So immature of me.. ahehehe.. ;p

So on my first day, every class i attended i said "you can call me KAT" so there! From then on I was known at Miriam as KAT. And continued to this day. Haha! But those who are very close to me calls me Katre talaga. :)

Whatever you wanna call me as long as its not "bruno", ok lang yan, walang kaso! haha! Mamili nalang kayo sa mga mejo madami kong nickname. haha! ;p

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Matabungkay Outing






Haayy. Thank u hunny for the extended birthday gift! :) Sobrang happy until now. :) Everyday is a celebration. :)

Yesterday, Ice and I went to Matabungkay, Batangas. Actually, that's not the original plan. Way back, before my birthday, I already told him that I miss swimming and I wanted to plan a swimming party but because of busyness, we we're not able to organize it well. So we decided to just have a double celebration nalang! And so we did and it was FUN FUN FUN! :) But i didn't know Ice wanted to bring me to Ocean Adventure, Subic then direcho beach na. So that was the plan yesterday, just a one-day event. But again, Sannie (ice's bestfriend and a very good photog; he was the one who took pics during our bday) and Eloi (sannie's gf) cannot join us coz Eloi had asthma. So change of plans again.. then viola! I thought of going to the beach then he suggested Matabungkay! Tada! Off we go! :) Yey! :)

Left at our house at around 7:30am, had a very nice and safe trip, arrived at Matabungkay Beach Resort at around 10:30 (we actually looked for a nice place that's why it took us almost 3hours to get there). The place was simple and peaceful. Konti lang tao kasi off-peak. Anyway, we had a chance to go around then decided to pay for the entrance fee. But before going to the beach, we ate lunch first. Bulalo and calamari. Talap-talap! :) Hehehe... After resting, we paid for the goggles and went snorkeling. We soooo love snorkeling! As in! Hehe.. The beach was a huge coral reef.. As in mga bandang gitna na coral reef parin.. Kaya ayun, pareho kaming me sunburn.. Maitim ang likod namen pareho kasi nakababad ang mga mukha namen sa ilalim ng tubig-dagat! haha!

While snorkeling, one native from Batangas (btw, Ice is from Batangas so he's a native also.. :) ), offered us a pedal-boat. He will tour us and bring us to a nice snorkeling area. So, we agreed! Addict talaga sa pagsnorkel eh. Haha! Anyway, he (manong) brought us in the middle of the beach.. then he told us that its time to go down. So we did and voila again! Ang GANDA naman talaga ng creations ni Lord na corals and everything! :) Sobra! As in sobra! Mga 30-45mins din kami naaliw sa pagtitingin ng mga isdang colorful and corals na malalaki! :) Ice got a sea cucumber and mga starfish... Hehe.. Then the time is up.. :( saaaddd... We needed to go back to the shore and go home kasi madame pa kaming plan eh and we only have 1 day to do it. :) I actually asked Ice to go pa sa pool coz i wanted to do laps sa pool, para me exercise ako. So yun, another 10mins sa pool. Hehe. Then off we go! Bihis and everything!


Then after that, he let me drive going back to Tagaytay. (Yey, I actually experienced driving at Tagaytay, with the makipot road and everything!) Hehe... Stopover at Mushroom Burger. We got hungry eh. Then had dessert at Taal Vista Hotel and took pics xempre! :) hehehe... :)


I so enjoyed my time with him. Sabi niya extended celebration daw at pahabol present niya sakin sa bday ko! Talaga naman! hahaha! Love you hunny ko! mwahness! :)

Bitin kwento... haha!

'Til next time. In detail naman next time. :) pwomise! ;p

Late Post.. Better late than never...

I've actually planned this post way back pa but then Im too lazy to write it down. hehe.. anyway.. This is about my birthday. Actually, mine and ice's. Dated September 29, Saturday.

Its my 24th bday and I really wanted to celebrate but in a different setting. My original plan was a swimming party. Actually, not a party but I just wanted to relax on my bday so I wanted to swim.. Haha! I love to swim and i miss swimming already. Anyway, it did not happen due to unexpected circumsantances and since ice and i are busy with work, we were not able to push through with the plan.

Come September 24 (Monday), I texted ice and asked him if he still wants to celebrate for his bday even if it was daaaayyyysss and wwwweeeekkks ago.. hehe.. and he said yes. I thought kasi we have the same circle of friends narin naman so why not just celebrate together, ayt? Hitting 2 birds in one stone kami. So yun! I gave my mom the things that we wanted for dinner and settled everything. Even made a text invite that says: : "Ice and Kat: We would like to invite you for a double celebration on Sept 29, Saturday, 7ish @ Kat's hse, Lamuan Marikina. Hope to see you there! " Something like that.. hehe... anyway, the day came and it was raining. Hehe.. I then remembered, last year I celebrrated my bday during the Katrina hurricane peak, walang ilaw and everything! hehe.. but still, I wanted to push through with it. So candlelit dinner ang bday ko. The same people came din.

Back to my bday this year.. hehe.. Ayun, i personally arranged everything ( which was very easy kasi sa house lang namen, and i wanted ice to rest coz he came from work pa the night before) so there.. Tawag-tawag lang sa chairs and tables (my tito owns a rental shop so it was a phone call away, so easy! ehehehe), and since it was raining we needed a big tent for the tables and chairs in the garden so i called my other tito working in our barangay if he could borrow a tent from the barangay, for free. Viola! He did! hehe.. after a few minutes, yung mga manong dinala na yung tent sa house. hehe.. All was going well. The last thing I needed to do is to wake ice up. hehe..

The food was ready, tables and chairs, everything was on its place. I sat down and waited for a few minutes then Ice came with the drinks. Last thing to do: Check everything! There! All is ready.

The first visitor came, then another then another. Hehe. All of a sudden, Ice and I were too busy entertaining our guests.. hehe.. di na nga kami nagpansinan halos the whole night eh. hehe.. kapagod pero we enjoyed it kasi madami din nagpunta kahit madami din ang kulang :(

Up until 2pm, may dumating pa na visitor. hehe.. In a nutshell, the dinner was fun so fun! :) We saw the faces of our friends as they ate and they were satisfied. Feedbacks regarding the food were great. hehe.. I just want to inform everyone that our family (ice and my family) has a gift in cooking. Very blessed to have them kasi ako, i don't know how to cook. hehe... :) I hope everyone who came enjoyed the time with us also. :)

WE are very grateful to each and everyone who came, who greeted and who prayed for us! :)

Til next year. We're hoping everyone will attend our party. And to those who came, thank you! :)

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Isaiah and Katrina

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My dear Hunny and I.

We love making faces and taking pics wherever we go. That's the good thing we share. Both of us are mababaw.. As in.. We see to it that we enjoy every moment we have together. Kahit na sabihin ng ibang tao corny kami.. Hehe.. So? Everyone's entitled to their own opinion and we respect that basta kami masaya! Yey! :)

We've known each other for 4 years now. Met him at DLS college, he's my classmate at health ethics and we became groupmates. Ang galing mag orchestrate ni God! :) Hehe.. Ayun, then the rest is history. Naaahhh... There were things that needed to be settled dati kaya it took us awhile to really commit to each other. Anyway, we will celebrate our first year anniversary on November 23! Tada! Yey! Im ssooo grateful to God that He orchestrated everything. He made things beautiful in His time, not our time. I could never ask for more. God planned us to be together inspite of the CHALLENGES that happened. We made it through every thing. God was our foundation and He guided us and still guiding us.

Enough said. Im glad all is well now. Peace to everyone! :)

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

My First Ever

This is my first ever blog at this site. Hmm.. I love writing but Im kinda lazy before. But I think now is the best time to create a new blog spot. Tada! I have my own in this site. :)

Where will I start.. My current mood.. LAZY... haha!!! Im sleepy and I wanna go home! Im here in the office, just finished interviewing tons of applicants over the phone. Btw, Im a recruitment specialist at one of the call centers at Makati. Well, my job is basically fun and I love my friends here (they make my stay ssoooo fun). I heart them much! :)

I just turned 24 and loving it. I have a very loving bestfriend, critque, prayer partner, lover, and hubby (hunny+baby) Ice! I have a not-so-perfect family but I love them with all my heart. One brother that I share my kaartihan with. Haha! :) Best Girlfriends way back in gradeschool until now, church friends that I also love hanging out with especially when eating! haha! and a good and gracious God! :) Makes my life complete though ironically, its imperfectly perfect.

Well, I have so many thoughts in my mind but I can't seem to choose what to write about so I'll just write about the basics.. More personal information..

Im the youngest of 3.. Actually, 2 nalang kasi our eldest brother died when he was born, no, actually (again) a day after he was born so we never did see him, only in pics. Anyway, one brother older than me, 1 year din lang. My dad died when I was 15 y/o due to heart failure. :( I was a daddy's girl so it was really hard for me when he died but I overcame the sadness and longing because of the strength God and my family gave me. Enough of the sad part, I know dad's happy narin. :)

I finished HS at OBMC Greenhills, went to Miriam to take up AB Psychology. I wanted to be a guiadance counselor or a preschool teacher but because I was a very obedient daughter (promise ;p) I took my mom's advice and left Miriam and pursued a nursing career. I only stayed at Miriam for 2years then transferred to DLS College. I was able to finish Nursing there.

There! Hehe.. Why am I working as a Recruitment Specialist at a call center industry? Because!!! Because I was being practical. That's about it. I want to be practical in the Phils setting. di ba? Pwede naman eh. Sa ngayon lang siguro. :) Mag one year narin ako dito sa January. So far, I've experienced all the first's in working. Mahirap na masaya! :) In a nutshell, Im very blessed to have a work. :)

Now Im sleepy. Yung brain cells ko eh malapit narin mag log off.. Haha! :) Pagod na! hehe.. I need to go home early to catch my mom na gising. Haha! Usually kasi tulog na mom ko pag dating ko sa house. :) So madali to the max ang gagawin ko maya. ;p

So 'til my next blog.. Tom! Haha! :)